I set my foot over the border of the barriers,

That shields me from the pain and sorrow

Of the dark shadows of the past

With a thousand grief and fear


I set my hands on the iron clad of the prison,

That caged me from the outside world

Of the chaos and cruel hearts

With a thousand of bloodshed and wars


I set my heart out of the hollow darkness

That covers me from the sunlight

Of the hope and love from the people

With a will to give me freedom



It was the never ending fear,

Or is it the fear that makes the cycle?

For the heart to crumble into pieces

I heard the roars of thunders,

The clamors of pride and  bigotry,

Clashing each other with anger and ambition

It was the loudness of the thunder,

Or is the noise from criticisms that echoes?

That makes the ears go deaf from the cries of agony

I saw the pain in their eyes,

The dying hope to survive,

Flickering in the midst of the darkness

It was the choice I need to make,

Or is the way I chose to run away?

For my soul to escape the storm,

To set myself free from fright and the dark.


(n.) The amniotic tranquility of being indoors during a thunderstorm.




I am no one.

I like to free myself from dependents of this bizarre world. A lot of people stood on their feet to put me down, and that makes me wonder why?

I am no one.

Should they conceive with my little achievements in life? Not at all. I grieved on the splattered black inks and dwell on its darkness. I got the feeling of hatred inside my vein. Now and the unseen forever.

I am no one.

Will they continue to drag my feet down? I am trying to lift my head up as I struggle to fly with my broken wings. All I want in life was to find my own path to where I really belong. No lies. No secrets. No false identity. Just me, myself and I.

I am no one.

Nobody owns me.They cant’t take my dreams away from me. I will paved the road towards my desire. God created humans equal. No one is deemed to be a servant of someone. We all have our freedom.



My serendipity…

How could it possibly happen?

At the time, I never thought it would happen.

Things fall apart as they fall crashing down

Under the deepest and darkest thoughts

Together with my avalanche of fears

I can only unveil, if I let myself to

It took a blink of an eye for this serendipity

Sweet fortunate things that arises

You came out of the blue and took my heart away

And I still wonder what makes you different

All before you, my eyes could only see betrayal

Nothing lasts forever and everything withers

No matter what I did you stay

Even if I end up hurting you

You always let you warmth embraces my cold soul

My serendipity…


Trouble is Love

I only picture the future

With this love we had

I though it could last a lifetime

Since forever is not a reality

Neither do the lifetime I wished for us


I remember that time you came

My  heart was in rage

From the pain that someone has brought me

People who left me and taken my existence for granted

I was wrong to think that love can mend a broken one


I can only see the clear picture

The joy we had together

As we battle the ups and downs of a relationship

Too bad we’re never that strong, as we thought

You and I, we broke down


I am feeling the pain

Of this trouble were into, alone

Should have known better…

Love is trouble, only now

Trouble is Love, for forever…

Strayed Apart

I can only imagine that love never stood still unchanging. It does. Love change and it was too late for me to notice. The coldness of his voice that used to lull me to sleep whenever I am down. It was the frown on his face when I start to argue with the things I wanted. He used to wear that kind of smile even if I made a failed attempt to  play my childish tantrums. It was the gap between us that I feel when we’re together. How can I possibly miss someone who’s just sitting right beside me?

He never told me. I could only sense the gray mood around him when he’s with me. Is he feeling sick? Or just real sick of being  with me. I can never tell that. Maybe, I am quite convincing myself that he does enjoy my company all the time. He just grew tired of the usual set up and wanted something more. Is that enough reason to explain the distant look on his yes.But, why am I feeling the hole inside my chest. It was like I lost him. He’s still with me, right?

I woke up reading something from his phone. I never asked him. I just cried and bit hard my lips to silence my sobs. He asked me ‘why’ and I could only cry harder as he was carried away by her current.